I thought about it for a great deal. Why this strange pause in my life. Suddenly things have come to a standstill. I feel two factors are quite new to me. The first one is- restricted mobility and the second one is the dependence on other's for even the basic human activities. It is not just me who thought and felt seriously about the misfortune but there was also my mother. She blamed it on the evil eye. She even blamed me for flaunting my material possessions including x1 before the world. Now the last line in this line of thought is - things have happened with some divine purpose. My mind strongly suggests that all events happening in my life has got an undying connection with my creator. He sees it all whether it is good or bad. As Philip Yancey summarizes it in his thought triggering book “Where is God When it Hurts”? Human beings tend to criticize the creator for the painful life not really grasping the plan behind it. They are so blinded by the pain factor that they seldom see or think beyond the usual. Most of them are so angry with Him that they spend time cursing and denying Him. It is as if their conscious/reasoning mind is clouded by hatred and a tint of amount of self-denial. To a certain extent it is difficult for people to accept pain and sadness.Calamity destroys the perfect balance in their lives. It takes lots of time to get back the balance.
My own state of stillness which was due to a fall and fractured leg created lots of unpleasant ripples among my near and dear ones. The central figure
In this whole drama is myself. I am the reason behind my own fall and I am the one who underwent the operation for the insertion of steel nail. Since I am the reason for creating these unpleasant ripples in the family circle I should be the one who should take the necessary steps to mitigate the after effects. I prepared myself with the help of these thoughts
1. It is God’s plan that I lie in a bed for some time. He is either punishing me or testing me. I am happy both the ways. His plan for me will always be good.
2. I am so blessed that I have a fracture only in my left leg. Doctor told me that it is one of the less dangerous fractures that can happen.
3. I remember the scenes in the ICU where I lived for 2 nights. Especially the face of that young boy who was in a state of coma. Tubes running through every hole in his body. He has been lying like that for more than 1 month. God save him and console his family members.
4. I thought about the worst situation that can happen to me and how will I live if something like that happens.
5. God gave me a chance to rediscover the boon of marital bond. She was my strength and support all these days. The person who was gifted to me on Oct 2008.
